Sometimes it’s impossible to forget about someone completely.
October 2010
Caroline is a devious little bugger.
Honestly what I want more than anything in the world right now is Baconatorz time. I miss that.
Deep Breath
I haven’t regretted things in a while. But now I do. I thought this year I’d man up and learn to be responsible. I thought maybe I’d kick the procrastination habit or at least not do it as much. I thought I get get on top of things. New year, new school, new friends, new start, you know? I thought that the more responsibility I took on, the more it’d push me to be responsible. Because I’d be forced to rise to the occasion and live up to standard. Boy was I wrong. There’s a lot of people I can think of right now that I need to have a good long conversation with but don’t have time. Fail. I still have things I need to get done before saturday when ITS is working at a festival. And I don’t have time to do them. I’m tired because I’ve been forcing myself to stay awake each night because it’s the only time I get to talk to one of my friends and I need to sleep late tomorrow. But tomorrow is when my whole family is doing a big cleanout of my house for my mom’s birthday which I told her I’d do. Except now I made plans to go see Inception and Toy Story 3 with friends AND have a pj pals sleepover after that. Movie starts at 3:30. I want to sleep till 11 at least. And I need an hour to get ready. That doesn’t leave much time to clean so I guess I’ll just skip out on the sleep. I can’t cancel movie or sleepover plans because this is the only time we can do it. Saturday I’m supposed to help out all day at a festival with ITS. I’m supposed to wear my costume. I don’t have my costume nor do I even know what I’m going to be yet because we haven’t gone thrifting. When are we going to do that? Saturday morning maybe? I don’t know. Tomorrow is supposed to be about my mom so we can’t do it then. Ugh. I lost the ITS notes which has TONS of valuable info. And I’m letting nick down by being unable to talk to him. And I have homework due next week that I don’t know when I’ll get done. Monday? All of this because I can’t manage my time wisely. Because I waste my time. Because I’m too lazy because I don’t have energy because I don’t eat healthy and because I don’t exercise.
So yeah, that was my pointless rant =P I feel a little better now that I’ve written my frustrations out. And it’s not even that big of a deal. If I’m going to be honest, it is a big deal to me and it seriously stresses me out but in life it’s not even worth a tumblr rant. I don’t like letting people down… I want to say yes to everyone and handle it all. It’s not even a lot, that’s what’s so sad. But it’s just because I waste my time and don’t use it wisely. I need to make some serious changes. And it’s taking a big toll on me to be texting late at night. I didn’t used to randomly fall asleep every day that I got the chance to. But that’s what I’ve been doing. So that needs to stop. I just don’t know how that’s going to work out… I just need to get through the next two weekends and once things have calmed down I can re-prioritize.
Between my mom and Caroline they have my college AND future husband picked out. =P Less work for me to do in life I guess.
The only thing that stops me from loving you is the fear that you'll love me back, but in a different way.
Have you ever stared at a spec on the wall and sworn it was moving and only after 5 minutes of staring at it do you realize it isn't actually moving? Okay, maybe that's just me...
Tumblr needs a way for people to send pics and text from their phones to their tumblr. I can't remember what I was going to post by the time I get from my room to a computer.
For You LOSTies
- Andrew: Messages..thats what the kids call it these days? ;-)
- Kayli: What???
- Andrew: Nothing
- Kayli: No no they call it getting caught in a net
All About You
Can we drift into oblivion tonight?
Ride the smoky waves of contentment into the fire’s light
And watch the sparks rise
If our faces pressed against each other, would you pull away?
Or would the heat like fire within you pressure you to stay?
Would you dream about me secretly at night when I’m away?
Or do I mean as much to you as the ashes we create?
I want to take your breath away
Flip the logs and start this fire again
If you’ll only let me
Let’s trace the stars together making patterns only we can see
Hide under the blanket that night conjures with me
The cold will never catch us if you feel the way I feel
Take my heart and hold it close, always remember that I’m real
I want to take your breath away
Flip the logs and start this fire again
If you’ll only let me
I won’t tell you that I love you ‘cus that’s not what best friends do
Take a picture, sing a song, whatever gets you through
Because my princess, this night is all about you
I want to take your breath away
Flip the logs and start this fire again
If you’ll only let me
I want to take your breath away
Flip the logs and start this fire again
If you’ll only let me
Because my princess, this night is all about you
It’s all about you
Life, Love, and the Pursuit of Joy
Maybe if people were chasing after joy, instead of happiness, we’d be more concerned about helping other people rather than helping ourselves.
